Okay, it's 4 am so I'm gonna go back to sleep but I just gotta tell you about this very odd and sexual nightmare I just had. 

 

It's about me, I meet a guy somewhere but I'm not sure where and I get his number, I know exactly who he is, some sort of celebrity but I don't recall who at the moment. And he has a friend a very nice girl with a kind of hippie/cool girl attitude and very sexual woman. Then another guy who's very nice as well and then another dude who was also famous but didn't seem to like me. 

 

Anyways, I'm at their place, I'm drinking and starting to trust this guy that I'm with. i like him a lot and while it was neither of our ideas I decided to lose my virginity to him because why not. (I wasn't drunk). The whole scene was very detailed in my dream, by the way. (though still not a wet dream) Most things was. Anyway, the next day I'm talking to the girl a bit, she figured out that I had sex with him and she's very excited about it. Then I talk to that nice guy friend and he has the same attitude. I remember mentioning to the guy, when talking about why I decided to lose it to a guy I barely know, that "I had been a virgin for a long time and that I was very horny as a kid so, fuck it. "

 

Anyways, later on I get home, I keep the whole "losing my virginity" as a secret to my family. The only one who even knows about the guy and how I met him is Lii, my older sister and she's kind of teasing me for it. She doesn't know I "gave in" or whatever though. My dad, however, didn't know anything about it but his attitude throughout the dream is very "your first time should be with someone you know and like" so automatically I feel bad and I'm very nervous throughout the dream. 

 

The guy keeps texting me and stuff and at one point he gets busted with wanting to sleep with me partly to get some media of their back, how that worked, I don't know. I don't feel fully betrayed though (only a bit, but mostly I just want to trust him) but I'm nervous that my dad with see it that way and Lii does, I think. Anyways, after this my sister finds out and she helps me trying to keep it from my dad, at least for a while because later she totally sells me out by connecting his and mine phone so that all the texts I get, he also gets. (I don't know how that worked, although I know that my sister only sold me out because she knew I needed dads help).

 

Anyways it ends with a scene where I'm at the comp and my dad is sitting near me, I'm trying to find something online, I get a text message that I know I thought was a rather nice one but dad thought that "no, you can't trust this guy" and then I start shaking like crazy. I thought that it was something I took or did bur I went to my father and hugged him and when I tell him what's going on he tells me to take a painkiller and it'll pass. I say that I don't dare to and that I want to go to a hospital and he answers that they're only gonna give you a painkiller anyways and that's when I woke up.

 

I've mentioned to a friend att one point that I have a lot of sexdreams but that none of them are wet ones. Here's an example of that. This one actually really felt like a nightmare but a very odd one..

I think the nightmare part comes with the fact that it felt extremely real. Like I could feel anything and was experiencing it all.

 

So, in conclusion. I might still be a virgin but now I bloody know what it feels like and no one can tell me otherwise! 

 

(Oh! I just remembered who the celebrity was that I slept with! Robert Pattison! xDD)

 

Some say that dreams give us secret messages and some say that a dream is like a summary of things we've gone through throughout the day or week or whatever.

Either way, I really can't figure out what kind of message this is supposed to give me or when the hell I talked, read or thought or anything about any of this in the past couple of days.. D: